Sexy, Flirty Abby

Hate.

2011-10-17T07:22:00.000-07:00

So apparently I've been hating on someone.

Someone so popular. So talented. So gifted. So beautiful.

I never told anyone but I hate this person.

It's like everything this person does, it's right.

And all the things I do are wrong. So wrong.

Okay fine, I know I'm wrong.

It's always me, isn't it.

I'm stupid, I'm ignorant, I'm not popular, I'm not talented.

You want me to go to hell? FINE.

Look at me, bitch. I'm that donkey you used to talk to along time ago and for some stupid reason you don't wanna be friends with me anymore because I'm a hypocrite and you're not.

I don't care.

I'll go to hell and that's fine by me.

Officially Single

2010-12-31T22:41:00.000-08:00

Me and my ex broke up after he got engaged on New Year's Eve.

I am sad, but happy for him.

I finally realized I loved him but I had to let him go because it's what I've always wanted him to do. To find another girl to marry. I can't marry him.

It's not him. It's really me.

Besides, I don't really have time for a real relationship anyway. I'm way too hooked on comics to even notice I had a boyfriend.

I guess I have the chance to find myself a black boyfriend at last.

Internet Crush

2010-10-15T03:48:00.000-07:00

I have often find myself in love with people in the Internet.

The first time I did was when I was still in school uniform and I was online steady with this Jew guy. He was, kind of, my first internet crush. Lasted for quite a while, had some problems along the way with another online friend of his, a girl, a woman, I don't know. He told me she was a widow with some children.

And then we never talk to each other again. Never knew why, never wanted to try contact him again.

While I was with this guy, I met my current boyfriend. But then, he never knew I was a real girl. I acted like a guy there. Not my fault. It's just how I act every day.

Still with my boyfriend right now, I like this one black guy in the internet, and made me realize I am attracted to Black people. They're so hot.

This guy knew I was flirting with him all day, but he never take me seriously. I wonder if he's gay. Oh man, I wish he knew. We'd make beautiful babies.

Hair

2010-10-15T03:29:00.000-07:00

I gotta cut my hair again. I think the last time I did that was 4 months ago. Wow.

Speaking of hair, I like men and women with short hair. When it's with women, I prefer it short yet still girly and feminine, not tomboyish.

But I still like girl's with long hair too. Just not too long.

Oh Love

2010-10-15T02:39:00.001-07:00

Friends ask me, "Are you really in love, baby?"

I said, "Never". And I never lie about this.

The true love of my life is a fictional guy from some American Comics. Does that counts as 'true love'? My friends would call it 'being obsessed'. To me, it IS love.

I can't really say I love my boyfriend. I like my boyfriend, but I do not love him like any other couple would. It's stupid. Why do they have to fall in love to be a couple? Falling in love means a lot of things. You can fall in love and not BE a couple.

My boyfriend wants us to be a couple. And he doesn't mind that he's with someone who doesn't have any interest on him. I respect him for not forcing.

Let's just say we're 'friends with a lot of benefits'. Not saying I'm using him or anything. I don't really need him in the first place, but having a guy friend has it's advantages. The good ones, of course. And he doesn't really use me like other guys would.

And the best thing about him, he doesn't mind if I have a crush on someone else. He'd only be jealous and angry if we were already married.

If God wants us to be together, we will get married with each other and will not flirt other with other people. We'd flirt with each other. Which would came out awkward. But you're married. they should be flirting WITH each other.

Anyway, I'm still single, with a boyfriend. And I've got lots of time exploring people. Man and woman. I like both.

I used to, and still, like this one particular girl in my class. It's a shame she has, or so we say, is involved with someone, and it's so obvious. Yet, she denied it. That's just stupid. I tell my friends about my boyfriend, everything I know about him. From how we met in the Internet until we see each other in real life until now.

They just never believe me when I said I'm together with him just for fun, and not because I was really in love. Okay, fine. We may look like we're in love, maybe on his part, yes, but me, no.

I just don't believe 'in love' is just for loving one person. I believe in threesome, polygamy, bigamy and stuff. I love so many people I would love to have sex with every one of them.

Only one of my friends knew I'm a bisexual. She may not be one, because it's clear that she's into men, but she's supportive. I just can't shout her mouth for asking questions I can't answer though.

I mean questions like 'How can a guy likes a guy when thy obviously have the same thing, I mean body parts. It's so strange.'

I find both male and female are attractive. I see both gender's perspective. What men see in women and what women see in men. Straight people don't see the way bisexuals do. They only see it one way and make comments like 'ewwww gay are gross' and stuff like that.

Why is it that people make those comments as if those gay people are going to get their boyfriends and all the single men the world?

Why is it so for people to realize we just want to love?